I've learn that the hard way. When I learned my long distance girlfriend died, I thought I actually lost someone I loved, but the truth is, she never existed. She and her brother was all a ruse played by a someone I wish to not have contact with anymore. What's worse, in my state of depression, I tried to take my life multiple times. Today I was about to do again, this time, I left a note to my friend that I'm going to do it. I made them worried, and for that, I am sorry.
As I failed to take my life again thanks to my mother, I received a call from my lawyer who told me the truth. There was no record of Angelica Gainnes in the United States. My depression turned to full rage and I texted "her brother" to know the truth. My mind was blinded that I forgot about that note I left for my friends, so they thought I was in danger. When I finally got the truth and explain them the situation, I said some stupid things. I told them that I never felt love for "Ange", that I was playing "her" game. That the note I left was planted so they played along. The truth is, I believed "her" love, I fell for it. The note I left was also true, I was planning to take away my life. The reason why I said those lies was because I was tired of being played like a fiddle. All my life I was played like a fiddle and I just wanted to seem like I had the upper hand. Sadly, it just made everyone see me as a jerk, and I deserved it. I should have told them the truth instead of hiding my emotions.
Though they might never forgive me, I won't blame them. I was a fool to the end. I was right; I am an intelligent man, but so bloody naive.